Perfect Life (Poem)

Blue seeps though this blackness
Yet no birds lurk among the leaves
I can’t sleep through this loneliness
Someones loving presence is all I need

Take a moment to look around
There are no leaves on the trees
In this cold there is no sound
Yet a perfect world everyone sees

No one can see through my skin
They can’t see this hurt buried deep inside
Unknown is this life full of sin
And the demons haunting my tainted mind

As the sky returns to black
I know this time I won’t be set free
Soon, it will come before I crack
A new life, then, I shall see

Marijuana is Good

So I am not a druggy. I never will be.  Ever. So let’s just clear that up before the beginning of this article. I do, know people who have taken drugs, and do quite frequently. I do, yes, hang out with them occasionally. Still, however, I do not take them, and have no intentions to, ever. Not a puff, not a blow-back, nothing.

I have, however, occasionally had a cigarette. It would have been better for me to have had an entire spliff then that one cigarette. Really, it would have. This is what shocks me. The benefits of smoking marijuana out number the benefits of smoking tobacco almost ten-fold. So my question to all of you is, why is marijuana illegal, and tobacco is legal?

Marijuana can relax you, actually reduces the risk of cancer, and isn’t addictive. Tobacco on the other hand, makes you reak, increases your risk of cancer, and is highly addictive. I think this world is a bit messed up.

So tell me your opinions on this. Do you have a different opinion? Let me know, and comment, like and follow if you enjoyed the article!

The Life Poster

Further Reading: http://patients4medicalmarijuana.wordpress.com/marijuana-info/marijuana-vs-cigarettes/

Why I Will Never Kill Myself

So people out there in the world have loads of things going on in there lives all of the time. You never know what someone is thinking, or what is going on behind the curtains. They may hold a strong public image, but in the background they are having serious issues merely staying alive.

Today we are going to discuss the different perspectives people seem to have of suicide, why people are pushed to this, and why I personally, will never kill myself.

First of all, people are pushed to the edge every day. As an example, an ex of mine had loads of stuff happen to her. We are talking rape, abuse, she was made homeless. All of this was going on, and some of it while I was with her as well. Now she wanted to kill herself. In all fairness it is understandable. However, she didn’t. I am genuinely surprised that she didn’t, but she didn’t, nonetheless. She was strong, and yet unfortunately everything she had got through had scarred her both physically and emotionally, and therefore, this was one of the reasons we didn’t work out in the end.

She got through all of that, and is still around today to tell the tale. How come she hasn’t killed herself, and yet people who have been through less have?

Well it comes down to loneliness, personal strength, and experience. Yes I said the word experience. This may sound weird, but hear me out. First of all, if you have friends, you can come through almost anything. Now I have no friends almost still to this day, and I have come out of everything I have been through, but that leads onto the second point. Personal strength. I am not going to lie, emotionally I am strong. Very strong. I haven’t been psychologically affected by what I have been through really. The only way it has had an impact on me is that I don’t trust people. Like, anyone. Ever. I just don’t trust anyone. That is probably the only thing that has happened as a result of my life. Some people are weaker then others. If you let things get to you easily, then they will affect you more, and you will let these problems take over your life, and you fear they will stay for the rest of your life. The final factor is experience. You need experience with life’s issues. You need to learn to always expect the worst in every situation. This is what I do. You also need to understand that things will get better. I know this from experience. Everyones life has good moments. If you are on a downer you need to always realize that a) there is someone out there who has it worse then you, and b) the future will get better. No matter what. I know this. I know that in the future, I will find myself a wife, we will have children, and I will be on a well paid job. Of course, I have no way of knowing this for certain, but I have hope. I also know that I won’t settle for anything else, and the sheer determination I hold inside me is enough of a drive to get me to my goal.

Of course, some people can’t see these things. I know because I have been in a situation of pure sadness, and you feel like the world will never change. However when your head clears, you start to see things clearly again. After I broke up with my fiancée  I felt terrible. I felt like my life had no meaning. Then time passes. You realize that it just wasn’t meant to be. You pick yourself, dust yourself off and move on. Why? Because the entire world isn’t a bad place. There is someone out there for you. You will  have better days. You will become happy again.

Now to go the second part of this article. Peoples opinions.

People have varying opinions on the subject of suicide. They both make sense in some lights. A lot of people think that suicide is selfish, and people shouldn’t take there lives when it will wreck other peoples as well. I understand this, and I can see where they are coming from. If someone is distraught, and feels terrible, and wants to take there life, of course they should think about everyone else, and what will happen to others if they take there own life, however, if someone is so unhappy in there life that they have that thought and are pushed to this point then is it really fair to expect them to stay alive just for other people?

Then there is my opinion, and most other peoples. If someone is having a terrible life, and they see no possible increase in happiness in even the distant future, I feel they have a right to end there own life. It is there’s to do with as they please. It is terrible if someone wants to do this of course, but if they are pushed to it, then it is there own choice.

On the other hand… let me talk for a moment about teen suicides. What utter bullshit! Now, there are legitimate cases out there of teens who really do have terrible lives. They really have had terrible things happen to them. Ok, I can understand them wanting to end there own lives. If, however, there is a 14 year old girl who is being bullied, and her parents don’t seem to care or whatever. First of all, talk to someone. Secondly, call the NSPCC if they really don’t care or if it is upsetting. Thirdly, wait it out. I was bullied. I got through it. I am still here. I haven’t even come close to my breaking point. Those kind of teen suicides I think are stupid. That isn’t enough of a reason. You haven’t even lived through the really difficult stuff in life. The stuff that really pushes you to the limits of what you can take. Of course, if you are going through more, then this is a real reason for you to want to kill yourself. If you are being abused, raped, or anything else, it is understandable. However if you are just being bullied a bit? No, this isn’t enough.

So I will never ever kill myself. I have hope for the future. I know my life will bring good things to me in time. No I don’t have faith, I don’t believe in a God. I don’t believe something will come and save me. I need to work for my happiness. All the stress I have been through and come out of is just life’s way of testing me. I will reap the rewards one day. Life can be a bitch, but you fight through it.

Everyone out there, stay strong, and have a good, positive day. Like, comment, follow, and do whatever else if you enjoyed this article.

The Life Poster

A Step in the Right Direction (Personal Tales #3)

So I have decided to do weekly personal tales… to sort of give my avid followers (however minute they may be) an insight into my mind, and the life that I lead.

I will start with where I left off in Personal Tales #2. Me having to break up with my fiancee for personal reasons. That hurt. Literally, I still feel the heart ache, and yet it has all been easier then I thought. Why? Well, I have been feeling this way for a while. You see, my fiancee did many unforgivable things during the course of our relationship. However, I am not going to lie, I made my own mistakes as well, which, whilst not as bad as hers, where still bad enough to cause a lack of trust, and tension. What she did however, and continued to do for the course of our relationship was also bad (it wasn’t cheating or anything, but let’s just she say she had ‘problems’).

This all caused such a stress and burden on me. Especially some other things (again, which I will discuss at length later when I feel better about discussing it). However, now I feel as though a weight has been lifted off of me. Whilst I am still tied to her for life, I feel like I can start again, which is what I am doing right now.

In the time between then and now I have been talking to a girl I shall call… ‘Beaver’. Why? Because I am crude, and her name begins with the same two letters. I started talking to her on Saturday. It has all been smooth sailing since. We have been hitting it off well, and that all seems to be good. The problem with Beaver is however, she has a friend… who we shall call ‘Terrace’. Terrace is super besties with Beaver. To the point of them being inseparable. Literally, and I am yet to see Beaver without Terrace. Despite us expressing mutual interest in each other. Terrace does have a few problems of her own, and I know Beaver has some as well, which has caused anxiety trouble.

Now ladies who read this, tell me, do you think anxiety trouble could cause such lack of confidence, and such extreme anxiety that you couldn’t go anywhere without you friend? She is completely and utterly normal at home, and she is nice, friendly, and extremely beautiful. She is perfect for me (except her slight lack of good grammar) except for this one thing. It is a MAJOR problem though. I always seem to attract girls with problems. Always. As if I am drawn to them like iron to a magnet, and yet I just want a hassle-free relationship for once. Is that too much too ask?

Tell me what you think I should do. Like please. I need advice here.

Continuing on anyway, I am talking to two pretty cool people right now. There is a third who I am also on alright terms with. I would call one of them a friend (for how long is my question though) and the other two acquaintances probably. So I am getting somewhere. Thank God.

Anyway, thank you all for reading. Let me know what you think I should do in this Beaver and Terrace situation.

The Life Poster

Angelina Jolie Made Honorary Dame

Time for more news! Why? It is interesting that is why! Today’s news article about Angelina Jolie becoming an Honorary Dame was top, just above the news about people dying of Ebola. It shows what people really care about doesn’t it. In all fairness, I try and maintain a positive attitude in life, and I don’t mind the papers attempting to do it as well (although they don’t really… they just think people want to hear about celebrity gossip more then people dying… it is a marketing ploy).

Anyway, I thought I would write this post today to talk about how good of a person Angelina Jolie actually is in comparison to other stars. So Jolie received the  “Insignia of an Honorary Dame Grand Cross of the Most Distinguished Order of St. Michael and St. George” for helping to fight against people using sexual violence as a weapon.

This isn’t the only thing Jolie has done to help the world in general. She is widely known for her extensive charity work throughout her life. I would list them, but well, there is kind of too much. Angelina Jolie is an extremely inspirational person. Look at her background, and the things that she has been through, and how she turned her life around and becoming a devoted-mother, a humanitarian, and someone who you just try and be like.

Thank you all for reading this little article! Like if you enjoyed it, and follow for more of my take on the news, and other posts.

The Life Poster

Too Skinny, Too Fat, It Doesn’t Matter!!!

So, I always seem to start my articles with the word so even though it isn’t grammatically correct. I should probably stop doing that. Anyway, this article is going to be about how different cultures view weight, and why it really doesn’t matter how much you weight.

In certain countries, and several hundred years ago, being overweight was seen as something attractive about someone. It meant that they had enough money to eat a lot of food, and that meant that they could provide for you, and therefore they began to be seen as attractive. My question is, what the hell changed? Why is being skinny promoted everywhere now? How did it start? Well this can all be traced back to March of 1959 when ‘Mattel’ first originally started distributing ‘Barbie’. This doll had an impossible shape. A woman with a body so ‘perfectly shaped’ that movies began to follow this figure during the 1960’s so that the women in them who wore bikinis and other similar items of clothing looked just like it.

This continued throughout the 1970s as more and more models became drug users, and continued looking like this because of it. This furthermore inspired clothing designers to create slim fitting outfits, for which they needed slim models, not only to fit the clothes, but also because the camera tends to distort those on it, making people look like they have more weight then they really do, so ‘the skinnier the better’. This trend continued throughout the 80s, right up until the modern day, except now we have the media pressing this ‘perfect body’ idea into people, and making men think that it is good to have a slim girl, so they are brainwashed into wanting one, and since men now also want slim women, the women want to look desirable. So the circle continues.

I do not like repeating things that others regularly say, however it is the only thing I CAN say for this topic. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. I know guys who like overweight women. I know girls that like overweight men. I know guys that like girls with shaved heads! At the end of the day, for every person out there, there are over a hundred people who find that person attractive, I guarantee it.

On top of all of this, there are the people that see beauty differently, and I know that what I am about to say is true. You can meet someone who ‘isn’t your type’ or who you wouldn’t usually date. Then you can talk to them. You begin to see how much of a great person they are, and then suddenly, you start to look at them differently. Slowly you start thinking “Actually, they look pretty damn hot!” and then you find yourself fantasizing about having sex with them in the middle of the woods, or whatever it is that you imagine doing. That is happened to me, just not the fantasizing about having sex with them in the woods…. no it was a train for me.

In all seriousness however, looks aren’t everything, and there are less and less people who share the same views as me it seems. In this sick and twisted society that we have come to live in nowadays, where the media rules, and crime is on the rise, there are so little people with good morale views, and people who actually see the world as it should be seen. Just because someone is a little overweight, or has a big neck, or six toes on a foot, that doesn’t stop them from being attractive, and no matter what, this doesn’t kill the beauty that is on the inside of that person. That is the real beauty.

Thanks for reading,

The Life Poster