So I have decided to do weekly personal tales… to sort of give my avid followers (however minute they may be) an insight into my mind, and the life that I lead.
I will start with where I left off in Personal Tales #2. Me having to break up with my fiancee for personal reasons. That hurt. Literally, I still feel the heart ache, and yet it has all been easier then I thought. Why? Well, I have been feeling this way for a while. You see, my fiancee did many unforgivable things during the course of our relationship. However, I am not going to lie, I made my own mistakes as well, which, whilst not as bad as hers, where still bad enough to cause a lack of trust, and tension. What she did however, and continued to do for the course of our relationship was also bad (it wasn’t cheating or anything, but let’s just she say she had ‘problems’).
This all caused such a stress and burden on me. Especially some other things (again, which I will discuss at length later when I feel better about discussing it). However, now I feel as though a weight has been lifted off of me. Whilst I am still tied to her for life, I feel like I can start again, which is what I am doing right now.
In the time between then and now I have been talking to a girl I shall call… ‘Beaver’. Why? Because I am crude, and her name begins with the same two letters. I started talking to her on Saturday. It has all been smooth sailing since. We have been hitting it off well, and that all seems to be good. The problem with Beaver is however, she has a friend… who we shall call ‘Terrace’. Terrace is super besties with Beaver. To the point of them being inseparable. Literally, and I am yet to see Beaver without Terrace. Despite us expressing mutual interest in each other. Terrace does have a few problems of her own, and I know Beaver has some as well, which has caused anxiety trouble.
Now ladies who read this, tell me, do you think anxiety trouble could cause such lack of confidence, and such extreme anxiety that you couldn’t go anywhere without you friend? She is completely and utterly normal at home, and she is nice, friendly, and extremely beautiful. She is perfect for me (except her slight lack of good grammar) except for this one thing. It is a MAJOR problem though. I always seem to attract girls with problems. Always. As if I am drawn to them like iron to a magnet, and yet I just want a hassle-free relationship for once. Is that too much too ask?
Tell me what you think I should do. Like please. I need advice here.
Continuing on anyway, I am talking to two pretty cool people right now. There is a third who I am also on alright terms with. I would call one of them a friend (for how long is my question though) and the other two acquaintances probably. So I am getting somewhere. Thank God.
Anyway, thank you all for reading. Let me know what you think I should do in this Beaver and Terrace situation.
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